The Beginning

"The only good decisions come to us when we hold the consciousness of the eternity of the moment

and go within ourself for the answer. "  -Gurudeva 

(Picture and quote from www.http://himalayanacademy.com) 

Part of each work day, I spend writing technical documentation at a local computer company. It's an amazing gift to have a secondary job that excites and challenges my left brain. Daily it seems to fumble through the methods and rhythms of applied statistics. 

This morning, I was asked, "How many real numbers are there?"
I replied, "They go on forever, so there must be an infinite number."
I was then asked, "How many integers are there?"
I replied, "An infinite number, but more than the first infinite number."

And just like that, I started thinking about the fact that there are varying degrees of the infinite.  (And, that was before 9:30am!) 
 
By 3:00 that afternoon, I was on the table because my shoulder had been bothering me.  My healing touch practitioner squeezed me in before her regular clients.

During the session, I felt the surge of something enormous, something that felt greater than full, from inside my heart and abdomen region.  This was an unfamiliar unit of expansion in me, the most great or the biggest full or the largest amount. 

I asked her about what she thought was happening and she replied that occasionally she felt it possible to surge into something greater, a greater dimension of the energy and the potential.    

I remembered  my conversation earlier in the day.

I always believe that in each moment all is perfect and is how it should be.  In that moment, I felt so strongly that I was being given a gift in this new dimension of that infinite.

The "amount" of light and joy and divine and love that was available to me at that moment taught me that there is a potential much greater than what my linear mind had previously tried to assign value to.

This journey that we are living here is so much larger than what we can measure with the rudimentary tooling that we are equiped with in our consciousness.

It was a new and powerful awakening for me and I look forward in working with this energy and knowing in the days and weeks and months and moments to come.  I know that it was supposed to be and I feel in my heart it was something very important.

I am not sure though that this was truly the beginning; I just believe that it was how it was to begin again.